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Wednesday, 21 May 2008

  • eating today was such a torture. never knew it could be so bad. the sight of food itself  tormented my stomach juices, it couldn't eat my lining. being surrounded by food didn't get me any hungrier. i literally stuffed food in my mouth, forcing myself to eat it.
    i eat to survive. 
     
    i think i do have a mild eating disorder. self inflicted by my overwhelmingly huge self image obsession. i struggle to accept my shape. i owe it to extremely low self esteem.

Tuesday, 18 March 2008

  • i have a name...(and its not ....)! convenience is NO excuse to not call MY name.! i hate it, despise it. call me jealous, i don't care. don't treat us as 1. i'm not invisible, neither do i live in her shadow. you can give me a nickname, but NOT call me someone else's name.

    it hurts. i know when you talk to me, you think of her. it shows, you see me but you call her. not once, not twice. i can count the number of times you actually called my name without thinking.

     

Wednesday, 30 January 2008

  • DOUBLE MINDED

     

    Graduation: Nov 2009

    What? So fast?

    NEXT year? I’m so slow. Everyone else my age graduates THIS year!

     

    The life, the job, the money

    I can’t wait to get my 1st pay check.  My own money. My hard work paid off.

    What if I don’t get a job? What if there’s NO job? What if I’m not good enough?  What If I don’t make the cut? What makes you so sure you’d graduate on time anyway?

     

    The ultimate freedom ..............(or so it seems to portray)

    Freedom to do what I want. To live MY life. To go where I want.! To come home or not....

    Freedom? Without a car? How would you go anywhere? How much can you possibly earn? Where’s CURFEW gone to? Who says it’ll disappear when you don the robe and hold your scroll?

     

    The BIG dream

    A year nearer to accomplish the unrealised dream. A step further from impossible. My own line. My name on the A-list.  My drafters and tailors. My own boutique. I’d design and decorate it, my ideas, in the past a sketch, would soon be a reality. The crowd, the satisfaction!

    A dream ‘s a dream. Where you gonna get your modal? Your tailors? Why would they want to work for you? The crowd? Why should they come? Are you any good anyway?

     

    “but when you ask him, be sure that you really expect him to answer, for a doubtful mind is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. People like that should not expect to receive anything from the lord.....james 1: 6-7”

     

    Oops.....i’ll change. I’m wiling

    Would you?

    Really?

     

    No one said it’s gonna be easy. But God said “I’ll be there for you”.

Monday, 28 January 2008

  • Dear Friend,

     

    Are we just classmates?

    Just friends, attached only through work and assignments?

    Do we not have anything else in common?

    Is our believe and character the only thing we share?

    Do I mean more than a pal to you?

     

    Would you be jealous if I were closer to the new girl?

    Would you hate me if I didn’t call you anymore?

    We used to talk everyday

    Why’s it only work we talk about?

     

    Is it you or me us?

    Am I scared of you?

    Of how we’d be if we shared our heart,

    If we spoke our mind?

    If we talked on life and love

    And everything under the sun?

     

    p/s:    I love you more than just a classmate would

              I long for a piece of you

              Just like how I have a piece of Them.

     

Wednesday, 23 January 2008

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